One night I thought I saw it....

One minute you're having some home made sushi, some vodka and red bull, the whole while disappointing the people that expect something magical to happen .....then someone wants to see your sexy you.... with one flash its captured forever.

When you try, it never works, why is that? Cause you want it, and when you want it nobody wants to give it to you (not talking about sex by the way...but it goes the same for that too) Its all about pretending you don't really want what you want, so you get it, But you have to keep that flicker of enthusiasm otherwise what you are trying for wont be that special and you really wont want it anymore. Crazy eh, its a balancing act, or maybe a juggling act or .....damn its all an act. I don't know shit...and I'm always wrong.
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jackp said…
please clarify...
1:47 p.m.
superchop said…
clarify....
2:01 p.m.
whyioughtta said…
you're like a young, dark-haired paul newman in cat on a hot tin roof. no wait, i mean you're like a cat on a hot tin roof. with its tail on fire. and smoke from your burning tail in your eyes. and you're trying to blow it out with your puffed up lips. but then you realize too late that you're a cat so you don't have lips.

yeah. like that.
9:56 p.m.
superchop said…
Am I a cat cause I am a Leo? Or am I cat cause people believe I am smart and caring just aloof but really I am just using them to feed me and clean up my shit? And should I be insulted by all this? I am working on that still, my next comment should let you know how I took it.....
1:40 p.m.
jackp said…
all i can say is...watch it on the ice choppy...best to be on my team...

:)
9:43 p.m.
jackp said…
like i said...please clarify:

"One minute you're having some home made sushi, some vodka and red bull, the whole while disappointing the people that expect something magical to happen .....then someone wants to see your sexy you.... with one flash its captured forever."...

???
9:56 p.m.
superchop said…
I think its a self imposed belief fuelled by peoples previous comments on what they expect from 'Andrew' sometimes I just dont have the spark, and that night was one. So I feel this pressure to step up and live up to expectation (again self imposed) so I hit the booze, and I have to go hard....real hard, but I do it, because I dont want people to wonder whats the matter with Andrew, why is he so quiet, he must be mad, maybe sad....and working through that and saying that I'm fine ..just low key, is tiring, its easier to hit the booze and put on the clown outfit and get to work. The loud obnoxious guy people love to hate, and that again is my own internal bs. Sometimes its the feeling that I am responsible for the success of the evening, even when its not my party or plan....I'm sick. Now its not always like that, it depends on the crowd, obviously with the gang I grew up with , thats not the story, and with folks like the crew at the studio on the hill, I feel I can be any freak I want to be or a wall flower and its all good. I'm sure its some sort of psychosis or psychological phenonmenom, but some things need to be left alone, some rocks should never be turned over, so I will never do more than jsut glance at its possible existance and understand it about as well as I can spell it..............or I just love boozin and I need an excuse...lol.
10:10 a.m.
jackp said…
yeah...the pressure...chill dude...pete just sh&(&#t has pants...we did some recording today...

chop...be chop....'be' the chop...chop the 'be'
9:16 p.m.
whyioughtta said…
More cowbell is always the right answer.
10:44 a.m.
jackp said…
waiting for the next chop blog...
3:44 p.m.
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